Slow down you move too fast
It has taken me since March 2008 to reach my first milestone yesterday. No one has ever accused me of being in a hurry to get stuff done. I believe the correct word to describe me would be procrastinator. I don't think it's because I'm lazy exactly, more that I work better under pressure. Maybe it's just easier to make decisions if you don't have time to debate every possible option. The best answer is usually the obvious one, right?
Shangri-La, Singapore
That brings me back to the whole reason I started this blog and that was the trip to Singapore. I suppose most people would plan a trip like that months in advance but that wouldn't have worked for me. That would have given me time to FREAK OUT and find a way to not go. As it was from the time I made the decision to buy the ticket it was too late to back out. Jim was leaving to start work there and I had too much to do while he was gone to start making a list of all the ways I could die. What I did do that made it possible to fly that far, especially by myself, was to accept the worst case scenario. I choose to be ok with all the things that could happen on vacation; smoke in the cabin, loss of air pressure, hijacking, crying babies (ok, just kidding about that one) lost luggage, crazy cab drivers, severe weather... see what I mean about were my brain goes given the chance, I should count myself lucky I can even leave the house. If I could face all of those possibilities and still get on the plane I would be ok. And I was.
Taxi! Can you take us to Boat Quay?
Ok, maybe I was a little nervous at Seatac but it wasn't even close to what it usually is, somehow I didn't have the debilitating fear that air travel usually causes. By the time I reached Narita I was so tired I couldn't have been worried if I tried. All I could do was keep moving and hope I could stay awake long enough to board the plane for Singapore.
Where was I going with this? Oh yeah - procrastinating and working under pressure. I've been doing this NaBloPoMo thing this month and I am finding it much easier to sit down and write with the little added pressure of the promise of posting every day. The question is how do I motivate myself to do this after November is over and the holidays come into full bloom with all of their time-sucking activities. We'll see if posting everyday for a month has a lasting effect. Time will tell, and for a procrastinator that is always the case.